This has been an emotional month.  We’re still trying to sort out the insurance issues.  There is a lot of miscommunication or lack of communication between the insurance administrators, hospitals, doctors and us.  All of the money should be taken care of by our primary insurance or TennCare, but it’s just the hassle of getting it all sorted out.  Not really what I would like to spend our time and energy on, but I’m thankful that it should all be taken care of.
Tony had an interview for a new position with Chick-fil-A.  We got news this last week that they are going to pursue other candidates.  Thankfully, Tony found out from his boss that it was due to credit issues… which have not been helped with all of our hospital stuff.  It was encouraging to Tony that it wasn’t his personality or ability.  And, it means that it’s not a final closed door.  We’ll just work on being better stewards of what God has given and wait for His time and His provision.
In the midst of all of this, I have still been trying to process through some emotions that have risen up in regards to Josiah.  I’ve been having a hard time reading other CaringBridge entries.  I think part of it is because my heart is still so raw from watching Josiah go through his treatments.  Then, this morning, I realized that a lot of it is due to fear that this monster will come back to try to destroy my little boy.  So, I’m working on getting my mind renewed with the truth that I know… that God is faithful and will carry us through every step that we take no matter where those steps take us.
I’m working on getting something worked out for us to go bless the kids that are stuck up at Vanderbilt for Thanksgiving.  I know there’s a lot to be thankful for – in the midst of these horrible battles.  It’s so important for all of us to be reminded of that.
Right now, I’m especially thankful to have a weekend full of girl time.  My close friends and I flew a friend in for the weekend to celebrate our fall birthdays.  Our husbands blessed us with childcare and we’ve enjoyed some rich fellowship time.  What a wonderful blessing and reminder of how important good friends are.

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